And it turned grey from that very minute.

I couldn’t sleep. I never enjoyed having emotional attachments to people, it messes up my thoughts like playing with super glue with my fingers, they just get more and more messed up. I’ve always tried to believe that when the time comes where I have to let go of certain things or people, I can move on at the speed of bullet trains. But time and time again this is not an actual fact in reality. There are past people I still cannot let go, there are things from history that I still miss, and now something new has been added onto the list. I watch this chain grow and I get lost in its complications. There are people that I want to continue caring for as long as I can, but there’s just that much amount of love I can give. I can keep trying but it will never be enough to sustain your needs. I miss you already, too much in fact for my liking, too much that it’s masking all my sense of logic, too much that this might just be enough to stop me from leaving and just stay put and be good.

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